Dear Diary,
Today, mi hermano, Jose Arcadio returned home. I have no idea what I’m going to do! I’ve started eating earth again. I love Pietro Crespi but Jose Arcadio is so strong, and muscular, and masculine. I’m never going to marry Pietro anyway – Amaranta won’t allow it. Maybe I should just leave him and go visit Jose Arcadio to cut everyone any more trouble. But Jose Arcadio has such a bad reputation now with Ursula because he’s selling himself to women for money. How could I ever be sure that he would really love me? I have to keep this short, my thumb hurts too much to write, I’ve been sucking it so hard that I have a callus on it. Oh, but, I’m so attracted to Jose Arcadio. But what would Pietro do if I cheated on him? They’re polar opposites – he wouldn’t be able to handle it. Oh, diary, I don’t know what to do… No! Tomorrow, I will go to him during the siesta hour and see what happens. If he accepts me, it’s meant to be; if he rejects me, then there’s nothing to worry about, but at least I would have peace of mind.
Until tomorrow,
Rebeca Buendia